Science needs good communication, but it also needs basic literacy

I’m really bummed out today and this post will kind of be a rant. As with most biochemical scientists I have a lot of temperature-sensitive materials kept in a -80 degree freezer box. Pretty much all my work since I started this job is kept in that box, along with samples sent to me by collaborators. Well over the winter break, a certain someone (I won’t name who, but I know who) decided to clean out the freezer, and they apparently didn’t read MY INITIALS which were written on my box, so they thought my box belonged to someone else who no longer works here and they tossed it. All my research products, gone. Half my samples from collaborators, gone. My only solace is that I still have collaborator samples LEFT, at least I still have something kept in separate boxes only for organization reasons, but still the loss of all that work is really making me not want to do any more work today or maybe ever. And it isn’t even someone I know really well who did this, I don’t know if that makes it better or worse. It’s someone I know, I’ve been to lab parties with them, but I struggle to think of their face from memory.

I’ll need to take stock of how far this has set me back. I need to contact collaborators to get new samples if possible. I especially need to strongly remind them that this wasn’t MY fault, although I worry that a petty collaborator might be furious enough to break off contact over something like this and blame me anyway. Most of all I need to make a plan to go forward. I haven’t been the MOST successful at my craft, like I said previously I still don’t have an extraction protocol that works every time, but I need to find some way to do things after this. At least it’s the weekend tomorrow, I can discharge over the weekend and hope to come back with something, but I think today is a lost day for science. I just can’t get myself in the mood to do work after discovering this.

Why do we still not know what causes Alzheimer’s disease?

Between 1901 and 1906, Alois Alzheimer began collecting data on the disease that would eventually bear his name. A patient with memory deficiency was autopsied after her death and her brain was found to contain amyloid plaques and neurofibrillary tangles. Around a half century prior in 1861, Guillaume-Benjamin-Amand Duchenne had described a disease that would bear his name, a form of muscular dystrophy, and like Alzheimer he had patient samples for study. In the next century and more both diseases would be studied and reported on, Duschenne Muscular Dystrophy was eventually linked to a single protein called dystrophin, and a number of FDA-approved treatments exist which target dystrophin and improve patient outcomes. Alzheimer’s disease was also linked to a protein, the amyloid plaques found by Alois contained a protein called amyloid beta. But while both diseases seem to have known causes, treatments for Alzheimer’s disease remain ineffective. What’s more, there is a growing body of evidence that the amyloid beta hypothesis for Alzheimer’s disease is on shaky ground. How is it that more than a century of study has not allowed us to even understand Alzheimer’s disease?

First, it must be said that the amyloid beta (Aβ) hypothesis for Alzheimer’s Disease (AD) didn’t come out of nowhere. Not only were the amyloid plaques found in Alzheimer’s patients coming from Aβ, but genetic evidence showed that the mutations associated with AD all seemed to affect the Aβ pathway. If the diagnostic criteria for AD included Aβ, and genetic evidence supported a role for Aβ, it seemed Aβ must surely be the cause of the disease. And further biochemical evidence supported a role for Aβ, for example when Aβ was shown to cause neuronal cell death in cultured nerve cells. The Aβ hypothesis even connects well with other diseases, Aβ acts as an aggregating prion and aggregating prions are known to cause other neurodegenerative diseases such as Creutzfeldt-Jakob Disease and Kuru. Note that some biochemists say a protein is only a prion if it comes from the prion gene of the human body, but like champagne this definition is expanding. So the Aβ hypothesis isn’t a hypothesis without support, it has strong biochemical evidence at the genomic and proteomic level, and fits in well with other brain diseases. It can certainly be said that Aβ proponents have ignored or downplayed evidence against the Aβ hypothesis, but that behavior is common in all disciplines. Science advances one funeral at a time.

Second, it should be recognized that AD is a difficult disease to study involving a difficult organ to study. AD affects memory and behavior by affecting the brain, those are processes and an organ that are still very opaque to us in general let alone in the context of AD. So AD is a disease we don’t understand affecting processes we don’t understand in an organ we don’t understand. Maybe we should feel grateful we even have drug candidates to begin with?

To bring this back to my own work, let me give you an example of the very small problem I am working on and the difficulties I am facing in getting data. We have a theory that there are different subtypes of AD. There is the rapid-onset (r-AD) subtype and the slow-onset or traditional (t-AD) subtype. We believe that this difference may be structural in nature, that the proteins causing r-AD and t-AD are the same but that they have different shapes. To this end, I am studying the structural variations of sarkosyl-insoluble proteins from AD patients.

OK what does that mean? I start by requesting patient samples from deceased AD patients matching either the r-AD or t-AD subtype. This is difficult because not everyone really agrees on the diagnostic criteria of these two subtypes (already we have problems!). Then once I have a patient sample, I perform a sarkosyl extraction. Sarkosyl is just a detergent like the one you wash your clothes with. A detergent can dissolve some things (like the dirt on your clothes) while not dissolving other things (like the pigments coloring your clothes). Previous studies have shown that the proteins causing AD are sarkosyl insoluble, so just like how laundry detergent will wash away dirt while leaving behind pigments, I can use sarkosyl to wash away non-AD proteins and keep the AD-causing proteins. These sarkosyl insoluble proteins include Aβ, but also include things like Tau and alpha-synuclein which some people hypothesize are the true cause of AD. The sarkosyl extraction is difficult, and I seem to fail at it as often as I succeed, am I just bad at my job or is this all really really hard? I hope it’s the latter but you never know. Then, once I’ve extracted the material I need from the patient’s brain, I use a variety of techniques to try to test our theory about AD. I can see if the extracts from r-AD and t-AD brains have different affects on neuronal organoids (artificial culture of cells that resembles an organ, in this case a brain), I can image the extracts with electron microscopy, I can take structural measurements with NMR, and so far all the data is frustratingly vague. I haven’t been at this job super long, but I can tell you I am not finding the One True Cause of Alzheimer’s disease any time soon.

And I think my struggles are fairly representative of the AD-researching community at large, or at least the ones I’ve talked to. It’s a disease that can only be studied biochemically post-mortem, the samples you get are both very limited and highly variable, it’s hard to relate the biochemistry back to the behavior and memory because we don’t have very good theories about that stuff to begin with, and we’re trying to use all the latest and greatest techniques to study this but we’re still struggling to get strong evidence to support our theories. After a century and more of study, we still don’t seem to be anywhere close to curing Alzheimer’s, we can’t really treat it, and we barely understand it. It can be frustrating and difficult work

Driving in the rain SUCKS

I’m tired. A friend of mine transferred colleges over the winter break, and after his other friend with a pickup truck got sick it fell to me to get him to his new town so he could move into his apartment in time for the Spring Semester. And DAMN did it rain on us! Sheets of water like rivers falling out of the sky! Cars on the highway not giving a damn! I felt even if I were to turn on my high beams on I would barely see the next car in front of me! The three hour round trip was a hell of a journey that I do not want to repeat, but I’m glad at least that my friend is safe in his new apartment.

You can make resolutions at any time

Small post today. New Year’s is often the time for resolutions, demands from yourself to yourself that you will change yourself in the future. But it doesn’t have to be the only time, I’ve made resolutions to myself throughout this year and will likely do so into next year too. I haven’t kept to all of them but I’ve always tried my best. I want to be always improving, not just when it’s popular to do so.

Talk to type

My cousin only uses her phone to text, and only texts by using talk to type, she says things and the phone will write her message. During Christmas she was texting with friends while speaking with the family, but didn’t realize some of her more uncharitable remarks were being picked up and typed by her phone. I think she’ll have a lot of explaining to do to her friends.

An excerpt from my Christmas letter

My Christmas letter this year was a bit personal, but there is a small part of it that I do want to broadcast to the world

I went to a Christmas party with my extended family, and I got a look around at the folks my age, older, and younger, and I thought about what my life is and what I hope it will be. I don’t know if I’m on a path that will lead me where I want to go, and I’m not sure what I could do to change it. I still want to get my continue my work in science, I still think I’m a good enough writer to work in scientific or technical communication as well, and I think I’m a good enough analyst to even understand financials and the work “under the hood.” Yet I haven’t reached a level in my career that gives me the comfort and freedom I truly want. I know none of us gets all we want, we’re always left with these self-doubts and self-reflections, wondering if our choices will take us where we want to go, but these days I feel overwhelmed by my doubts and fears about my own future. A lot of young friends I know joke about existential fears they feel, that Climate Change or Nuclear War will kill us all within a few decades, but then those same friends go about their day without seeming to feel any ill effects from the dread. What’s the opposite of existential? I feel a very personal dread every day and I do think it’s keeping me from doing my best, the fear of failure may be causing me to fail, and I don’t like it but don’t know how to avoid it. Whatever comes, I want you all to know that I will keep trying, keep striving, keep working towards my goals and towards the work I hope will help everyone. I don’t know what the future will bring me, but I promise to always try.

My internet sucks today

As with many people, I travel during Christmas to see my family. I’m currently staying at a family member’s house, typing out a blog post because I still want to write every day. They’re working on decorating and I don’t want to disturb them, but I don’t know the password to their wifi. I’m having to make do by using my phone as a personal hotspot, but the bandwidth is terrible and it takes like 20 seconds to load any webpage. This had made me think of a question: what technology would I miss the most if I lost it? Agriculture might be pretty high up there, but the internet would definitely take top spot. I could probably do without a car or climate controlled rooms for longer than I could do without the internet, it’s just made my life so much easier and more fun. I like to blog, I like to game online, but more deeply I like to keep in touch with all my friends who live far away and work with my collaborators who live in other countries. I like that when I travel I can easily book hotels and find restaurants all before I arrive in a city, and that when I’m home I can find which hotspots are too crowded to go to without wasting my time to first go to them. Even reading has gotten more fun with the internet, Agatha Christie had a habit of dropping random bits of French into her books just because, and if I read those books without the internet I’d have no way of knowing what a character had said, and wondering to myself if it had been an important clue. Now I can just type it into google translate and know “ah, that character was just mocking another one’s accent, cute.” Not to mention that I can start a book on a kindle, lose that kindle, and continue right where I left off on a second kindle. And also not to mention that my local library has an email digest of new books that are often very interesting, and which I’d have never known about if it weren’t so easy for them to tell me about them through email.

Yeah the internet is pretty great, I should ask for the wifi password.

You can get addicted to warm temperatures

I’ve lived in the same house for many years and I’ve almost always slept with the heating off at night. The winters around here aren’t brutal, but their cold enough to chill you to the bone without plenty of blankets. Recently the heating unit in the front of the house failed, and while it’s being fixed I’ve been using a space heater to stay comfortable. I told myself I’d only use it a little, but after having it on blast just a few feet away from me while I stay awake reading, it’s very hard not to leave it on to keep me warm while I go to sleep. Heck it’s very hard not to keep it on at all times day and night, with it blasting warm air I feel like a ball of warmth in the middle of a snowstorm. Psychologically, just knowing that right now with the push of a button I could be warm instead of cold makes it hard for me not to push the button and warm myself up. I hope the heating gets fixed soon or I could become addicted to this.

The ethics of stealing from your boss

OK not really. But we all know that workers don’t always give their 100% for the company, we all know that some people who work from home (or even work in an office) will spend hours on their phone not being “productive.” But where’s the line? I ask this because when I log my time, I sometimes log time that wasn’t necessarily spent physically doing things for the company. Maybe I took a walk, maybe I was chatting with coworkers, maybe I even left and came back. But I had things to do late at night so I claimed I worked late into the night (which I did) even though maybe the entire night wasn’t “work” so much as “work, then play then work some more.” I don’t know, just wanted to think out loud.